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My Post-Yom Kippur Analysis

Happy Day After Yom Kippur, everyone! It's Racheli, and I hope you missed me. I missed you too. Probably lots more than you missed me. How was your fast? I'll give you the lowdown on mine.

First, I'd like to say that there's nothing I enjoy more than mopping the floor, doing laundry, dishes, straightening up the house, and feeding other people before I feed myself right after I finish a nearly 26-hour fast. My husband and I were doing comparisons, trying to decide who had the harder day. While I didn't spend my day in a prayer marathon like he did, I was doing my best to fight off my massive caffeine headache and trying not to yell at my kids by hiding in my bedroom most of the day.

That wasn't so easy, because my new a/c unit decided to keep on going all day long, as it obviously wanted to have its own Yom Kippur marathon. It was f-f-f-freeeezzziiing in my bedroom! Also, it's not like it's that hard for my kids to find me. I should learn to lock the door. All in all, I think I prayed for about five minutes. Not bad, if I do say so myself. 

In between reading books and breaking up fights and trying not to drool on the food that I served my kids, I managed to close my eyes for a few minutes here and there. By the end of the day, I was so spiritually charged that an amazing thought came to me. Really, it was more like I was lightheaded from the hunger, but let's keep that between us. 

It is written that the end of Yom Kippur is the pinnacle of holiness that we can reach in our human bodies. After 40 days of selichot prayers, teshuva, Rosh Hashana, and ten more days of bonus teshuva, we have Yom Kippur, the day that we resemble angels. Those that are spiritually connected can feel the intense high at the closing of Yom Kippur. I'm jealous of these people. All I could feel were the intense rumblings in my stomach. 

Immediately after Yom Kippur is over, we come back to Earth and re-assume our status as mere mortals. What a bummer. But, here is my big insight. Many people wonder why, even though we aren't on the same spiritual level as on Yom Kippur, we can't continue on with that high that comes from an intense feeling of closeness to Hashem. To them, I say, "YES WE CAN." Wasn't that Obama's slogan when he was running for President? 

Well, I actually mean it. We absolutely can maintain that feeling, and what's better, we can always improve upon it. The way we do that is through hitbodedut, or personal prayer. 

Speak with Hashem as much as you can. Make Him an intimate part of your life. You will see that within no time, you will feel His closeness and personal involvement in your life. I promise you, there's nothing sweeter than that. 

We should all be blessed with a wonderful year of health, abundance, spiritual awareness, and and ever-growing connection with our loving Father. Oh yeah - and world peace. 

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londonmale

I think we move backwards and forwards from and to Hashem, like Ezekiel's chariot across the heavens.
Our struggle is to keep moving toward's Hashem.
I think those who keep moving forward are Tzadikkim?

Messody

Hi Racheli
I hope Yom Kippur was good by you.
The fast went buy quick. I did feel a little thirsty. And my yom Kippur siddur was confusing to pray in. But the weather was cool considering that is fall in Brooklyn N.Y.. Waiting for succot. At least you don't get to vote next month. I think Trump and Clinton need major atonement for their own sins just a thought. They are giving me and everyone else a headache. Love your post though . It's nice that you are helping your husband fast by taking care of the kids. I think when you do your best hashem provides the rest.

Elena Kuchik

Exactly!
i was trying imagine myself as angel all yom kippur - it didn't help my headche..I am glad fast season is over and definitely hisbodedut works for me too!

annie

Thank you Racheli... i always look forward to your "real" posts... *:-) They are great!!! You encourage us, all, to try our best, no matter the circumstance... (can so relate to those 5 minute prayers...but trying hard to increase more)...

YES... to a sweet new year, and world peace, for sure!!! SHALOM TO ALL...

 Racheli

You have a good point, Londonmale. While it seems that we do move backwards at times, there are times that the apparent moving backwards is actually us moving forward. Rebbe Nachman says that when we move up spiritual levels, the bottom of the next spiritual level up is dark, so that's why it appears that we are moving backwards. I don't know about the Tzaddikim, but I would tend to agree with you. Shana Tova!

 Racheli

Messody, can you please send over some of that gorgeous fall weather??? I'm so jealous! It was 90 degrees here yesterday, and today it's 95!! What gives? I'm happy you had a decent fast, and wish you all the best this coming year!

 Racheli

Yes, Elana, I don't think angels get headaches! lol I am also glad the fast is over. Don't you feel such a sense of accomplishment, though? Keep up with the hitbodedut - you can't imagine how much Hashem loves when we speak with Him! Shana Tova!!

 Racheli

Thank you, Annie! I'z far from perfect, u know.... Shana Tova!!

Elena Kuchik

:) My sister just told me they have those amazing slow-release caffeine pills ..but hope that Mashiach will come before next fast and I will not have to try it..
Here are the encouraging words from book "Building a Sanctuary in the heart" pg 146 "The attainments that one gains from an area in which he tries and doesn't succeed are impossible to gain in a straightforward manner". and also on page 145 "The light tat one receives from the tests and the falls, whether they be in one's will, thought, speech, or action, is a great light that is essential if one is to acquire anything!" So Gam zu la tova! Shabbat SHolom!

 Racheli

Amen to the Mashiach coming before next Yom Kippur, Elena! Thanks for the beautiful quotes and the caffeine pill tips! Shabbat Shalom!

Ted Jessa

On this most holiest of days my mind reflected on the world's fate, both collectively
and individually. Listening to Breslov teachings throughout the year, I speak daily with
Hashem of areas where I need improvement. Areas involving actions between man
and God, interactions with fellow people.
Food was not entirely on my mind during the fast. I certainly did not feel like any sort
of heavenly being. Nor does fasting make for " Atonement". Rather I felt more how Isaiah
describes fasting as a physical act which promotes empathy for the poor who have nothing
to eat through out the year.
May we all be inscribed for a healthy, sweet , and redemptive New Year.

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