Just look at this disgusting picture. Okay, so it's not really disgusting. I'm just trying to convince myself that it is because it's the most carb-infested sandwich I ever saw. David had me make him baked ziti, which was already torture enough. Then, he decided that there weren't enough carbs in baked ziti, so he put it in a fresh baguette that he had me buy him. Then, he topped it off with Sriracha rooster sauce.
Enough about him. He can talk about himself as much as he wants on his own blog. So let's move on to me. I'm so mad at myself. Yesterday, I ate like a bear about to go into hibernation. The truth is, I do that every day. But yesterday, I ate things that I wouldn't normally go near, like those delicious rugelach that I have a perpetual love/hate relationship with. The problem is that I can't eat just one. I ate six (or was it seven?), each time getting more upset with myself, but at the same time rationalizing that I wouldn't be eating for 25 hours. Today I'm still a little bit mad at myself, because why can't I just have a little self-control?
But I'll put these thoughts on the back burner (he, he) and focus on the significance of today. Yes, we're mourning over the destruction of our two Holy Temples, and the many horrific and terrible things that have happened to the Jewish People over its very sad and persecuted history. And yes, we're all wondering when Mashiach will make his grand announcement and help bring the world back to love, peace, and unity.
We're all wondering why so many good people have to suffer in this world, why the best people get taken away from us, leaving orphans and a broken home. We're wondering why the world leaders are a bunch of self-centered, power hungry, evil idiots, and why Hashem lets them be in power. We wonder why some children are born to abusive parents, and others are born with debilitating health problems.
We can't know the answer to these questions until the Mashiach comes and explains everything to us. But in the meantime, let's wonder something else. Let's wonder why we all fight so much. Let's wonder why we find it so hard to put aside our egos and try to see the other person's perspective. Let's wonder why we think that only our way is the right way. Let's wonder why we still discriminate against others because they're different from us.
Yes, we are all very different, with very different ideas of right and wrong, how to live, how to behave, what to believe in. Hashem knows that. He doesn't expect us to be the same. He expects us to recognize our differences and learn to work with each other, using those differences to bring us closer to our goals. He certainly doesn't expect us to use our differences to hate, judge, and be intolerant of one another.
So why are we spending yet another year without our Holy Temple and our Mashiach?
Let's answer that question with another question.
Why can't we all just get along?
We don't have to love each other, and we don't even have to like each other. But let's work on treating each other with simple human decency, and respect that the other guy has a right to his opinion and ideas. Hashem doesn't expect perfection; He just expects us to behave like humans.
I hope that this will be our last year of our collective suffering, and with Hashem's mercy, we will celebrate the following year with our Mashiach in a world where we all respect each other and don't have to fast any more!
To kick off the celebrations, I could think of no better way than drinking wine posting these delicious muffins that I made two nights ago. They're perfect!
And.... I have a RECIPE!! See? The Mashiach is just around the corner!
Racheli's Dairy-Free, Gluten-Free, Sugar-Free, Oil-Free Pumpkin Walnut Muffins:
- 3 cups finely ground almond flour
- 1/2 cup honey, agave, or Splenda (yikes!)
- 1/4 tsp. baking soda
- 1/2 tsp. baking powder
- 1/4 tsp. fine Himalayan or sea salt
- 1 T. of homemade or store-bought pumpkin pie spice
- 1/4 cup chopped walnuts
- 3 large eggs
- 1 cup canned pumpkin puree
- handful of craisins (optional)
Mix the dry ingredients first, and make sure there's no lumps. Then, add the wet ingredients, mix, then add the chopped walnuts. After scooping the mix into the muffin tins, top the muffins with more chopped walnuts. Then try not to eat the whole bunch at once!
Let's hope the Mashiach gets here this year, because I've had it with fasting!